The INNER
Ollo. This could be called a journal of sorts. Since writing down on pen and paper has become to boring, I have created a blog. This blog is more for me then anyone else. So if you dont like what you hear, you can megabyte me! Whenever I feel like it I will come on and write about certain things. Example: My day, whats on my mind, a certain topic, friends. All that wacky stuff that goes on with me. Some days I will not post at all. OH WELL.
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A Proper Introduction.

So, I thought, this blog needs a proper introduction. Lets do it! 

Well, this is me (Instagram btw).: 

Giustina You Dont Need To Know My Last Name.
Pronounced: Jus-teen-ah. Justina. It’s Italian.

I live in Niagara Falls. Canada. Yeah, I am Canadian eh. 

I am 17 years old. I will be 18 on April 15.

Obsessions:

Really, I am just your typical fan-girl. 

Main Shows and Movies: I love, Supernatural, Loki, Avengers, Amazing Spiderman, The Vampire Diaries, Twilight, Harry Potter.

Music: MARIANAS TRENCH! Nuff said. I do listen to other stuff, but my music life mainly revolves around Mtrench

Books: Twilight, Harry Potter. This is actually really hard, I don’t have a large book collection since I don’t have much money. Most books I get are gifts, and they were the Twilight and Harry Potter series. I do a lot of reading online. I am a fanfic nut. I just recently bought Safe Haven, because the movie was great and we all know the books are usually better, so its a must read. 

OTP’s: Now, this is something I could go on forever with, I am just going to say my main pairing, then my others that I couldn’t live without. 
My main OTP: Frostiron, Loki and Tony. I just love them.
Other OTPs: Destiel, Dean and Castiel. Stony, Steve and Tony. Peter and Dr. Curt Conners. Now I know that’s a weird one, but idk, I love it. Klaroline, Klaus and Caroline.  

Extras:

I love the color blue.

I love to write almost anything. If I wasn’t such a procrastinator I would have many fanfics out, instead of my 5, which only 2 are done.

I am not going to college next year, I am going back to highschool for 12b, since I decided to amp up my grades.

I LOVE SLEEP. If I could I would sleep all the time.

Then there is a whole bunch of depressing things that I would rather not get into.

Other places to find me:

Justin Hammer (Tumblr RP): Here

Captain Holmes (Main Tumblr account): Here

Loki Hiddleston (Other Tumblr.): Here

Klaroline (FB fan page): Here

Quotev (Where my stories pop up): Here

Twitter: Here

I think thats about it. 

So yeah, this is me. Thanks for reading.

2 months ago · 1  #personal #me 

I have no idea on what to title this.

This is not what I wanted my first to look like. Not angry, not emotional. I wanted to type something bubbly and fun. But I can’t to make that happen this week. Sure I have had many, many good laughs this week with my friends at school, but I always. There are not many days at school where I am sad and a total bitch. Usually I am cheery and fun. 

It all changed when I come home and I am not talking with my friends. Thats when the dark thoughts creep into my mind like a wave. Then my parents and brother just add onto my feeling like crap. 

I may have the face of a clown and school, always making people laugh and cheering people up, but behind all that, I am a really sad person. I know for my friends that is hard to hear, but it’s the truth. Sorry to say, but it is. 

Tonight was just it, where I finally gave up. Not many friends can bring me to tears, this one did. And it was because I was the asshole, I didn’t mean to be, I was to be a joke, but no, I ended up being the asshole and now, I just don’t want to go back. I want to stay in my room forever. With no tumblr. Just a journal, that would be nice. Then I wouldn’t here about how much I suck. 

See! This is what  I am talking about. This is my first post to this blog and Jesus Fucking Christ can it get anymore depression (well it could). 

Believe it or not, I don’t mind being the listener, letting people vent there issues, then talking to them and making them feel better. I take pride in how easy it comes to me to make someone who was sad happy. But clearly it works the other way to, as easy as it is to make someone happy, it’s just as easy to make them sad.

I am saying this now. I am sorry. I am so so sorry. I never wanted to be the root of your sadness, which I have become. I love you, in the matter of time we have known each other, you have become a close friend of mine and I can’t imagine loosing you, but I think I have. I don’t think we can sink back into regular rhythm after this. Darling just know, I loved you, I was completely OK when you vented, to me, you are amazing in every way, shape and form. 

But I think I have out lasted my stay in that world. So, with that, I think I am taking a break with it. 

I love you.

Goodbye.

-Live life. Don’t watch it pass you by.

2 months ago · 1  #personal #rock bottom #so done